Chaos

After four years of experience, you can sense it when it's coming. Chaos.
Despair. Depression.
losing ones self.
being stuck here. not being able to get out of the hole that has been dug mostly by you.
Collective chaos. That's what usually happens.
But there's a secret.
You can get out of it whenever you want to. If you want to, of course.
By being honest and giving things their real dimension.
Getting depressed ain't hard nowadays. But you have to get over it. Otherwise you're lost, buddy.