When you're small, you have to rely on other people to live. These people seem like gods to you. Becoming autonomous means that you no longer need them but you still have people who teach you things, inspire you deeply. And you think they're so great and so sure about their words. And then you become one of them. And realise that nothing was ever like that. When you're someone others expect things from, you realise that neither you, nor the people you have expected things from are some kind of super human. There are doubts. And there is time spent and fatigue. You feel like doubting the communication you have daily. And then you understand that all these people were full of doubts too. But the taught you a lot of things. That's where you rejoice.